Thanks edwin for your lappie it really saved my life. I appreciate it a hell lot.
today i tried to be like you. i tried to pretend that nothing happened. i realize how bad you felt.
i wished all these didn't happen.
cause and effect. i lost a friend.
i foolishly thought it was all about whether i am willing to forgive or not.
then i realized as much as i was trying to let you know how selfish you were, i didn't see myself changing into the selfish one.
even with time, nothing's gonna be the same. or maybe it'll take another year idk. it just pains me to see that whatever we had was crushed with my own fucking hands and i kept pushing the blame onto you. now that i regret, it is all too late. too late for me to apologize.
i can't face you anymore. i don't even know how i survived today.
thanks and sorry.
sorry for this late apology.
